It still hurts. I'm still confused. I don't want to be a fool. But I'm here. I'm standing by his side. I haven't left. I want so much to believe him. I do believe him. But I still wonder. And if what he's saying is the truth, then I'm still hurt by the words, even if there wasn't meaning behind them. Am I so easy to placate? It's just -- this is us. We've been together so long. People go through so many lovers trying to find the one. For us, it was just US. It's always been us. And maybe I'm so in love with that love story, that I'm unwilling to see anything else. I don't know. I can't think straight.